"Mummy, I am in your Tummy"

It has always been very important to us that we make a conscious decision about becoming parents and that we wait until we are ready for the parenthood. So, here I’m, only 4 weeks from my “due date” and we are so over-the-moon excited for the very special arrival into our lives.

I know the feeling of soon mommy-to-be cant be explained in words. In next 4 weeks or so, someone special, someone new in our family will be chirping all day long. We are so excited and cant wait to hold those little fingers and make our little bunny a promise to hold him/her whenever he/she needs us. We have studied everything we could about how to become a good parents, how to help or baby learn and grow, we have been watching tons of videos on how to massage our little one, how to be prepared for his/her first bath at home, how to dress up little monkey, We are trying our best to make our baby’s arrival very special and with full of joy...

I have heard/read that baby in the womb feels whatever mother feels! Dear baby, do you really feel what I feel? When I am scared, do you feel scared too? Do you think what I think? Do you hate what I hate? Do you love what I love? If you really feel everything then you must know that we have loved you from the very first day you started growing into me.

Dear munchkin, just little more wait until you meet your dad. You have been knowing me for a long time now but your daddy is fantastic too. I know he is going to be a wonderful daddy. When I decided to hold his hand for a lifetime, the only thing I saw in him was his good heart, his love and care. He doesn't show but he loves you more than I do. He already bought your first toy to accompany you from hospital to home and be with you forever. With your daddy in our lives, we are sure to have lots and lots of laughter and fun.

I still remember it was May 13, 2012 when my best friend @twinkle delivered a baby and I bought the pregnancy test home. The thought of just knowing whether I was expecting or not had made me so excited that not sure how I would feel when I will be holding a little pumpkin in my hands for real. As soon as I had opened the test, I read through the instructions and rushed towards the bathroom. Test insisted to wait for 3 minutes but I couldn't wait and stared at the result, it took only few seconds to form a plus(+) symbol on my test strip. I was the happiest. Immediately I rushed towards daddy-to-be and I was like.. yeyyy Its positive!  He was like "Are you serious??? " and we both laughed. That was the moment we had been waiting for a long time. It was unbelievable. I was carrying a baby in my tummy and the thought of becoming parents just overwhelmed us. Finally after 12 years of togetherness, we would have someone in this world who will be our replica. oh my god, I just cant imagine how our world is going to change in few weeks...

It really didn't take a while to pass these 8 months. I have already completed 36 weeks and 4 more weeks for the big day. My hospital bag is ready too, washed all baby’s clothes and blankets. Little bassinet is ready as well for the baby to sleep peacefully. I bought all those cute baby things which I just cant wait to use, ordered all best baby products to make sure I don't harm the extra sensitive skin. OMG the list is endless. I told chirag the other day that we are almost done with the baby’s preparation but i still need to get my mani-pedi, facial and hairs done before baby arrives and he was like we are going to hospital to have you deliver a baby and not for baby’s wedding :) I told him that bringing our baby home is no less than any celebration. I want to look my best when my baby look at me for the first time :) Aww.. I am going crazy, i guess...

Two weeks ago we attended those childbirth classes at the hospital just to have an idea on how to prepare for labor and delivery. It wasn't necessary at all but we thought to have a little knowledge than being so dumb at the time of delivery. I was asked about my main concern, whether I am afraid of labor and delivery but the instructor really got surprised with my answer as I said I am not at all nervous. We are all ready to hold baby in our hands, We are excited and don't want that fear and nervousness come closer to us :)

My due date is January, 20th and since I am approaching my date every passing day, everyone is asking me: “How do I feel?” As I said earlier the feeling will never be expressed by any expecting mother. My friend @twinkle always teases me that, your baby is gonna be a football player as every time she asks me how am I doing, I tell her that baby is moving/kicking a lot and I am sure he/she is not like chirag who is so calm and quiet and we both start laughing. Really, it feels just great when you know that someone in your tummy is growing since past 8 months and within a month or so a part of you will make a grand entry to this beautiful world. This is just incredible and I call it nothing but god’s miracle happening to every woman.

As they say, all good things bring little pain. Pregnancy is no exception in this. Those first few months with mood swing and nausea are the worst things anyone could ever suffer in the life. I was so frustrated during my initial days of pregnancy that thinking of passing next few months made me so nervous but as days passed and our baby grew every day, it made me feel so fresh and wanted to enjoy this 9 months as much as I can... Also, the extra cuddle and love and care I have been getting from my dear hubby is the best-est from all other feelings :)

Little one, you don't have any proper name yet but we promise you to give you the best identity we could ever think of. We are struggling so hard to find an appropriate name for you and we think this is the toughest job of all in the entire pregnancy. You have an eager family waiting for you. You will be treasured and celebrated and admired. We are so excited to meet you but still we will wait patiently for you while you get ready to enter this beautiful world. we would not ask you to hurry... Come when you are ready.

Lots of love,
Mommy-Daddy

Turning 30!

Today, I turn 30.


When I was little, I used to think that people at their 30 were really old. Now that I am in my 30s, that perception has quickly shifted.

Standing where I am today, I still feel like a little kid, except I’m doing my best in playing the part of an adult- trying to fit in with other grown-ups and subsequently hiding little kid within.

To be very honest, I was not thinking of writing an article on how I feel on turning 30. If you ask me, I will say, there is nothing different at this age except for the sheer fact of growing older with this number definitely makes me look back in my past and reminds me of all good things I had done for the ppl around me, some silly mistakes I had done, how many ppl got hurt by my “not-so-acceptable” attitude and the commitment to my own self on putting as much efforts I could to change myself for the better tomorrow and to make all those ppl happy and proud who really love me and care for me.

Its been 3 decades I have been on this earth and I have been loving my existence to the fullest. Lot of ppl tell me that “I am self obsessed!” My answer to them is: "I am not self obsessed. Its just that I love myself more than you do." I could love ppl around me with my dear heart only because I love myself and that feeling has inspired me to write down what I really feel at this age. You cant be connected to yourself if you don’t appreciate, don’t love your existence.

When you are in your 30s, ppl around you would expect you to be wiser but believe me you don’t have to be that way. I am not saying that being wiser is not good. Its just that no need to change yourself only because you are getting older. Life’s good the way you take it. Life’s good the way you enjoy it… Its OK to behave like a 10 years old when you have a sweet tooth and someone leaves you alone at the dessert bar… lol

While writing this article and recollecting old days to realize what I had missed out in last 30 years that I shouldn’t have missed, the only regret I have is I couldn’t express my dear ones, my family, more often that I love them a lot and every minute staying away from them reminds me of all good times I had spent with them. So today, I don’t want to miss this chance to say I love you all. I appreciate your presence in my life. I am no one without ya’ll.

Life gets real, life gets better when you grow older. It helps you understand true meaning of your existence. Don’t worry and stay happy. Its always good to witness our own self going through the changes at every passing moment…

I am excited. I am more energized today as I step into a new year with lots of hope, courage and dreams of doing something extra for myself and everyone around me.

8365 miles

8365 miles... Can you guess what is it about? Okay, I will make you guess as you read through this article and yeah, don’t be so impatient to read “THE END” because sometimes entire story is better than knowing just the end. :)

When are you visiting India? Don’t you miss your parents? Don’t you wanna have fun with your friends back home? Don’t you wanna cuddle your niece and nephew? Do you not miss little fights with your sis? Hey you missed that gorgeous wedding, you used to prepare such a beautiful ‘Rangoli’ when you were in India, we had so much fun on a kite flying day, we bought new car and I wish you could experience the first ride, the new restaurant opened at the corner of our street is so amazing, hey you gotta taste the pani puri on xyz road its just delish, dad’s 60th birthday party, mom’s injured but cant go home and soothe her, niece scored first in the competition but couldn’t be present to enjoy her success, my nephew talks on phn about new toys he bought home, meeting parents is a web cam thing now a days, relatives know me on phone only, I have no idea all the lil kiddos of my cousins back home grown up so big in last 4 years….. oh my god, there are countless things that are happening on the other end of the earth and I am glad ppl still care about me being left out from their celebration and talks about all the fun they have had without me…

Whatever I just described is a bitter truth now days for almost everyone. There are so many things to miss when you are away from home. Away from home doesn’t define only away from India, it means away from your family, your childhood memory, your relatives, your friends. Lot of ppl who live in india might feel the same way as I do besides the distance. They are away from family because of career, studies and plenty of other reasons. I am sure all is going to attach their selves with this article and going to call their dear ones soon after reading this article :)

Even though I am away from home, I am living my dream here. I remember once I dreamt of going to a different land to explore new culture, new tradition, new opportunities and I am glad I did it today. I know lot of ppl won’t agree with me on this but there are so many things to do/feel/experience besides home land. I have discovered the magic after stepping my foot out of my horizon and dared to dream something new, something which had me sacrifice so many things. I chose to be strong enough and accepted my new life, accepted to experience something new every day. You will laugh at me but using a toilet paper was so weird to me on my first day in USA but now it became just a part of my life. So, accepting a change is not as difficult as it seems!!! I just adopted new life and it was as easy as tearing your old attire after you bought new one… lol

I am living my dream. I am a free bird and I want to fly high and high and high. This is what I think every day and walks out of the house to explore something new. Every day is a new challenge here. Challenge to live without family, challenge to grow every day, challenge to understand different ppl you meet all day, challenge to come back home with the same job, challenge to have trust in your own self to wake up as the same person you were night before. These are the things you learn when you are away and life teaches you how to face the everyday challenges.

My priorities have been changed in past 4 years. I never thought of creating my blog and writing a single article, I never thought of travelling a world, I never thought of doing something extra for my family but spending some lonely days without dear ones made me divert my mind in writing, the beauty of nature surrounded by me inspired me to travel the world one day, being away from my parents made me think/care more about them each day. When I call my dad every weekend and he passes a joke saying” he completely forgotten that he has 2 daughters” made me rethink on the fact that I haven’t met him since 4 years. :( All these are little things but affect your life in many ways.

As I am sitting on a couch, looking outside my window, I feel like life is so uncertain. At this very moment you have everything but still you are missing something. Being on a different land has lot to do with your strong heart and focused mind. Things look so different when you are sitting at the other end. Just yesterday I was talking to someone in India and that person asked me “Don’t you feel like meeting your parents? Don’t rush behind money and come back home!!!! “I felt so sad after knowing what ppl out there really think about me staying away from home. I have only answer to them: “I do miss my parents and I am not running behind money. I love this life and I chose to live my life differently. I was with my parents/friends/relatives for 25 years of my life and not meeting them for couple of years should not make anyone think that I don’t miss them.” I know lot of ppl won’t agree on this attitude but that is what keeps you going…

I started this article to let everyone know that there are so many things in this world to explore, to experience. Don’t be afraid, wake up and go out of your comfort zone. You have just one life and you don’t want to keep rolling it around same old routine.

Be a bird and fly away!!!

8365 miles is the distance I flew from India to USA on September 5th, 2008, had so many dreams, achieved some of ‘em, waiting on many of ‘em and few will never be fulfilled but I am glad I made this far. I know one day I would be able to show this new world to my dear ones the same way I am experiencing it right now.

What are you waiting on? Do google right away and see how far you are from your home? Distance is just a number. The only thing matter is how you would try to fill the gap!!!

Miles to go before I sleep… :)